Random video of a song I really like

I dig it. That’s all. :D

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Can’t sleep

For some reason tonight, my mind will not be quiet. I keep thinking about all the things that need to get done. Theresa and I decided to move into a different apartment on campus. While the cost is about the same, the school is paying for both Internet and heating. Removing those two things will cut about $75-$100/month from our budget.

The savings are AWESOME. No complaints there, but being on campus Internet means I lose access to one of the most consistent things in my life for almost five years: World of Warcraft. Yes… I know. It’s a game. Not that big of a deal. And you’re right, in a lot of ways it is just a game; but at the same time there is more to it than that. Whenever I’ve played WoW, I’ve always been able to interact w/ people. Having fun conversations and getting to know them and their lives. I’ve built relationships and have made friends through WoW. How deep those friendships go depends on the friend but there have definitely been several connections made through WoW over the years and it’s going to be hard to lose those. It’s a tough but necessary sacrifice. Besides, there are plenty of other games still out there for me to play like KotOR, KotOR II, Zelda: Twilight Princess, Final Fantasy XII, Final Fantasy IX, and Final Fantasy VIII just to name a few. I’m sure there’ll be more coming out that I’m gonna wanna play but those should hold me over for the rest of summer I think.

I think this decision has also been prompted by the book I’ve started reading. I picked up Dave Ramsey’s “The Total Money Makeover” awhile ago but never got around to seriously reading it. It took too much time and I was too busy w/ school/work to worry about it. But now that summer’s here and I have a lot of free time on my hands, I decided I needed to get serious about reading it.

I start reading through it this morning and I’ve read through the first three chapters. So far the book is very slow. It’s right now explaining about how I need to make an attitude change and change my belief’s regarding debt. I think Dave’s absolutely right when he says the biggest hurdle to financial freedom is me. I really need to put my big boy pants on and put in the time and effort it takes to start building wealth. Theresa and I can thrive on our incomes, if we manage them well. Most of his points about debt make sense to me. I’ve been trying to avoid going into debt as long as I can but things like school, unfortunately, I haven’t been able to pay for without taking out student loans… C’est la vie.

Hopefully we can get our collective butts in gear and start getting ourselves more financially stable. It’d be really nice to start being able to start putting money away for the future; for things like a house, a new car, baby products, a vacation, etc. This is going to be hard but the motto from the book is really awesome:

IF YOU WILL LIVE LIKE NO ONE ELSE, LATER YOU CAN LIVE LIKE NO ONE ELSE

So here’s to hoping things go well w/ this. I pray that Theresa and I can get our butts in gear and stay in gear and move forward w/ our lives.

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Making some changes/updates

Just a quick note to say I haven’t fallen off the face of the earth. I’ve been keeping busy w/ work and friends. Also getting ready to move into a different apartment in married student housing. The space is smaller which means I need to get rid of more crap!

Anyways, the site’s changed a little bit. Recently upgraded to WordPress 3.0 and I’m working on getting the site modified to exactly the way I want it. Don’t be surprised if things change around several times during the next few days.

Off to bed for now cause I’m tired!

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On Birthdays

Today I turn 25. A quarter-century. It almost seems like 25 is the marker for being “older.” And I mean that at 25, you’re supposed to have your career figured out and be well on your way to making yourself the President of some Fortune 500 company. I dunno. That always seems the stereotype of what is expected of people my age.

I am the complete opposite of that right now. I don’t have a ton of career aspirations and I have just started “real” school this last year. All I really know is that I enjoy leading worship and that I want to do that for as long as I can. We’ll see where that takes me.

My ultimate goal in the end is to be a follower of Christ in wherever He leads me. If that means turning left when the world says right, I’ll turn left. If that means I drop school right now and go live in Africa, I will. I want to be caught in the center of God’s will, chasing after those things that make Him smile.

I guess you could say that’s my birthday wish (I know I’m not supposed to tell ;) ) but that is the desire of my heart; to chase after the desires of His heart. I hope I can get there some day. I need to work harder at it. More discipline to keep focused on Him and His desires. More time spent in prayer and in the Word… Lots of changes I need to make in my life. I pray for the discipline to be the disciple I want to be.

So here’s to 25 years of life, and to hoping I have another 85 left in me :p

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About Life

So… it’s been almost exactly two months since the last time I wrote in my blog. What’s been going on in my life? Not much. Still working at Best Buy as a Geek Squad agent and loving it. Great people and lots of fun to work there. There’s hardly ever a dull moment at my job.

Theresa still hasn’t moved down here sadly… she’s interviewed for a couple of jobs but nobody has hired her yet sadly… So I have two roommates living w/ me til school starts or until Theresa gets a job, whichever comes first.

I am trying to start studying through the book of Ruth through the methods I learned in my Bible Study Methods class this last semester. I’m excited to start applying the same methods to my own personal study; maybe it’ll help prompt my own reading and quiet times. We’ll see.

As for now, I sleep. I’m hoping I’ll be able to write more. I am slowly getting the motivation again and I want to be able to become a much more consistent writer. Here’s to hoping for something more!

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An Unusual Source of Inspiration

I recently stumbled across some of the latest music of rapper Eminem. While I know he has had an interesting history in the public eye, I have found myself come to a place of respect for him. I think it first happened when I found out that he played a lot of his songs with live musicians and not just loop machines and a DJ. I’ve also come to respect how honest he is in his music. He speaks his mind, regardless of what people will think. That amount of vulnerability is rarely found in a famous musician.

I stumbled across this video recently and it resonates really deeply within me. He details a lot of the fears, dreams, and struggles of being a famous dad. I think it’s a great thing to know that the fears that I know I’m going to have as a dad are shared by others. Even someone as infamous as Eminem has those issues.

I really appreciate the first part of the first verse. Talking about being willing to protect and do anything for his daughter. I know that’s how I’m going to feel about my kids. I know they’re going to be the best things that ever happen to me. I can’t wait to have kids. I hope I can be the dad they deserve…

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Lent

Lent, a somewhat odd spiritual practice of some of the more liturgical denominations, has come around again and I have decided to partake of it this year. I decided this year would be a good year to give up pop, more specifically caffeine, and see if I can go 40 days without it. I have admitted to myself several times that I am a caffeine addict and lent has given me an excuse to try and get over my addiction. The hardest part in all honesty is going to be after lent is over. I am fairly certain I can go 40 days without a pop, but it’s the time afterwards, what do I do with pop now that I’ve gone without it?

I know I’ll still enjoy pop and a large part of me is sitting here waiting for the Monday after Easter to come so I can go buy a Dr. Pepper and enjoy it like I never have before. But is that really what I want or should be doing? Lent is a time where we reflect on life and see how something that we physically do can interfere with our relationship with God. If I have gone through the practice properly and I see that pop for whatever reason is interfering with my relationship with God, should I really go back to it after Lent is over? Am I giving it up for the right reasons?

Lent really is an extended fast from certain things. I don’t agree with some of the weirder rules about not having to fast on Sunday’s and such. Fasting really is a time where you can remove something from your life and focus instead on God. But what happens when you discover that that thing really is interfering with your life?

I think in an ideal world you would be able to completely give it up. Unfortunately, we live in a fallen world. I know for me personally, I don’t think pop directly interferes with my relationship with God but it can indirectly affect things. It can cause me to gain weight and not be as healthy as I could be. Not to mention, spending money on pop is not the best way to spend my money. How better could it be used? Could I use it for things like tithe for church? Maybe put it in savings? I’m sure I can find much better uses for money I would normally spend on pop.

So here’s to 40 days (or more) without pop. I am excited to see what God will show me about myself as I go through this journey.

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Why do I write?

There are days when I wonder, why do I write? What purpose do my words have? Who reads them?

From the lack of comments on some of my posts, I have a feeling that very few people actually read this, which is OK. I’m not maintaining this blog for the comments or the glory of knowing that people are reading my thoughts. I’m not seeking to get puffed up about my writing.

What I am seeking to do is to get into the practice of writing more. I want to write because I want to get in the habit of writing often. And not just blogging and putting a stream on conscience on paper. I wanna be able to write poetry and music and stories; maybe some day an actual book. Writing is not my passion but I enjoy having a place where I can speak my mind.

What my passion is though is music. I am discovering that I enjoy music and I enjoy making music. I want to get to the point some day where I trust myself enough to not only write words, but to share them. And not these words, these are just thoughts in my head but I want to be able to write about my deepest intimate thoughts and feel safe sharing them with those around me.

It is a very scary thought to sit down and share music or words that I’ve written down with people. It’s a vulnerability I know all too well. While I’ve never done it, the fear alone of sharing words paralyzes me into not even putting words on paper. I am working on it though. Nobody likes be vulnerable in front of people and I am no exception. In some cases I think of myself as the spokes person for not being vulnerable and trusting people.

I hope to get over that some day and this blog is helping. So, that’s I think the heart of why I write. I think God has blessed me with thoughts to be shared with those around me and He’s blessed me with a heart for music. I hope to someday be able to be vulnerable in front of people and I hope and pray that it turns out OK. Anyways, that’s all I’ve got for now.

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MercyMe – All of Creation

So some people know how much of a mercyme fan I am. I honestly didn’t realize it until I went to my third concert and sang along to all of their songs. I’ve become an even bigger mercyme fan since I realized just how much they like to tweet. They’re currently getting ready to release their next latest CD and I am extremely excited for it.

The CD is called, “The Generous Mr. Lovewell.” Bart Millard, the lead singer, explains a little bit more about the idea behind the CD:

It’s an interesting concept and I think one of the first “concept” albums from the group.

To help generate interest in their new CD, the guys from MercyMe went on a country-wide radio tour sharing their first single “All of Creation” with radio stations all over the USA. This first single is a great song of worship talking about every part of all creation bringing praise to God. Bart expands on this more here:

It’s an awesome song and is a great reminder of just how awesome God is. I love it! Here are the lyrics for the song. Feel free to comment and leave you’re opinions on the song.

Separated until the veil was torn
The moment that hope was born
and guilt was pardoned once and for all

Captivated but no longer bound by chains
left at an empty grave
the sinner and the sacred resolved

chorus:
and all of creation sing with me now
lift up your voice and lay your burden down
and all of creation sing with me now
fill up the heavens let his glory resound

Time has faded and we see him face to face
every doubt erased forever we will worhip the king

chorus

the reason we breathe is to sing of his glory
and for all he has done praise the father praise the son and the spirit in one

chorus

and every knee will bow oh and every tongue praise the father praise the son and the spirit in one.

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How do you measure a year?

I just received from my Netflix queue a dvd of the final performance of Rent on Broadway. It is AMAZING! I love this show. The most famous song from the whole show is called “Seasons of Love.” It’s a stirring anthem asking the question, “How do you measure a year?” In daylight? In sunsets? In midnights? In cups of coffee? These lyrics remind us of how important it is to take advantage of each moment, living life to the fullest each moment of each day.

How does that apply to my life as a Christian? I think it applies really well. Living each day to the fullest for HIS glory is a great creed all Christians can and should live by. Am I relying 100% on Christ? Is His life, lived through me, reaching those around me? Have I shown Christ today? Have I seen Christ today?

Even moreso than just living a life dependent on Christ, are we, as Christians, experiencing the fullness of life in Christ? Are we enjoying ALL the blessings of being a part of God’s chosen family?

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly. – John 10:10 (NASB)

Are we having life abundantly? I know I am learning what it means to partake in the abundance of life in Christ. I hope to someday figure it out but I don’t think I will ever completely figure out. I believe that it one of those things that we won’t know until we reach glory. What a glorious day that will be.

I leave you with “Seasons of Love.” Enjoy!

Seasons of Love
Words and Lyrics by Jonathan Larson
525,600 minutes, 525,000 moments so dear.
525,600 minutes – how do you measure, measure a year?
In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights, in cups of coffee.
In inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife.
In 525,600 minutes – how do you measure a year in the life?

How about love? How about love? How about love?
Measure in love. Seasons of love.

525,600 minutes! 525,000 journeys to plan. 525,600 minutes –
how can you measure the life of a woman or man?

In truths that she learned, or in times that he cried. In bridges he burned, or
the way that she died.

It’s time now to sing out, tho the story never ends let’s celebrate remember a year in the life of friends. Remember
the love! Remember the love! Remember
the love! Measure in love. Seasons of love! Seasons of love.

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