As the few of you that follow my blog have probly noticed, I’ve been very lax in making updates lately. So I decided to try and get back on track by digging up a writing prompt to see if it’ll help get some of those writing juices flowing. I found this one posted on Live Journal this afternoon.
If you had one night left to live, what would you do? Would you prefer to spend your final night with a loved one or alone? What would you choose for your last meal?
That’s a very easy question for me. I would absolutely spend it with my wife. I would want to do something I’ve never done before. Maybe play at an open mic night or something like that. My last meal would definitely be pizza. Probly from either Pizza Hut or Rocky Roccocco’s in downtown Spokane. Pepperoni pizza with a Dr. Pepper drink. Mmmm… that sounds really good.
This question does remind me of a man who had the ability to answer that question. Randy Pausch was a professor at Carnegie Melon and he had been given six months left to live from an inoperable tumor. He was given the opportunity to answer the question “If you could give one last lecture, what would you say?” While I don’t agree with some of the things he says, he’s got some really good things to say. It’s a long lecture but worth watching.
I was working on worship for this Sunday and I had a bit of inspiration so I wrote what came to me. Not sure if I’ll ever do anything w/ it but it’s the first time I’ve written creatively like that in a long time. Enjoy!
I can’t think of words to describe the joy we’ll see
At the place we’ll be, with Jesus Thee
What a joy, what a thrill, with Jesus still
Carrying out The Creator’s Will
Not mine but thine be done
We will dance and sing
Around Jesus we will swing
Arms held high, and praises rise
To the Almighty King of everything
One with the Son in Glory
The bridegroom to the Man
The word, made flesh, alive again
Living breathing moving doing
Almighty King of Creation
Sin is gone, death is done
There is nothing but life in Christ
What a joy it will be, to see
My Jesus, face to face with Thee
Post about worship planning for this weekend is incoming.
So I have officially been out of work for a week. Now what?
I’m not sure. I have a couple of options laid out in front of me. One, I could try applying for jobs all over trying to get work. Two, I could try starting up my own consulting firm. Now there are a few drawbacks w/ both options.
As some of you know, I plan on returning to school in the winter and I am not certain how long I can guarantee an employer that I will be able to work for them. That immediately makes me not a very good candidate. We could be leaving as early as November or as late as January. No guarantees at this point. Plus, I’ll need time off to go down to Portland and find places where we’re going to live and establish new jobs down there.
Lack of jobs in the area
I was the last of my friends to become jobless. All of them are all still out of work and unable to find new jobs. Who am I to think that I’m going to be any different? Most of my friends are a lot smarter and better at what I do anyways; If they don’t have a chance, what chance do I have?
Where does that leave me?
Not 100% certain but more than likely I will be trying to start up my consulting business. I am not certain I can make enough money at it to be able to pay all of our bills. It requires some time to build a client base and as I stated above, I don’t have a ton of time to do that. We’ll see what God does next.
On some level, I do consider myself a worship leader already. God has put me in a place where I am consistently leading worship and being asked to plan and lead music outside of just Sunday’s at church. I believe this is a God called position and I am walking in the path He has laid out for me. I am not certain where that path leads beyond going to school to be better equipped for it.
Music is becoming a passion of mine again. I thought I had lost that passion. I used to have to have music playing all the time. I have learned to live without it and be in silence. I think that is what God has been trying to teach me over these last five years. I had been going to school at His Hill in Comfort, TX and I was shown that God did not want me doing music anymore. I ended up coming back to Spokane and going to school for computers. I got a job in the computer field and got an associates in computer networking.
I spent a lot of time working on computers and even got to the point where I was in charge of running LAN parties for SpokLAN.net, a local computer gaming group. It was at this time (end of 2008) that I was asked to step into a position of leading music at my church. Our worship pastor had been called to another church and we were in need of people to step up and lead the church in music. I was one of four men asked to be music leaders for the church.
Trying to lead worship and plan LAN parties for SpokLAN simply wasn’t working out anymore. It was too much stress and it made me realize that a choice had to be made: Computers or music? While I loved computers and enjoyed working on them, I did not believe they were my passion or something I wanted to be my career. Music, was once my passion and is becoming my passion again. I spent countless hours in the music building at my high school. It is something that makes me truly happy. I want to continue to pursue it. I also know that it is something God was calling me to.
In the end there wasn’t really a choice. God also seems to have made that choice quite clear for me as well. Removing me from my computer job frees me to be totally focused on Him and what He wants from me. God has almost completely removed anything computer related from my life. I now have nothing more to do than think on Him and where He wants me to be. This is a great and scary time for my wife and me but I believe it is a great time for God to do some amazing things and show off. I leave you with a song from David Crowder Band that I love. It will be my anthem through this jobless season. I am excited to see what God will do.